Twins...double the happiness? The mixed emotions of PPD.
While reviewing my pictures for last weeks blog I noticed something. There were not many pictures of me. When I look back now I know why, I was suffering from Post Partum Depression (PPD).
Looking back reminded me how I was feeling the first few months after the twins were born. I had the baby blues my first two pregnancies but this was different. Yes, I had preemie twins, I was more stressed, more emotional and overly exhausted. According to cdc.gov
stressful live events like being a mom of multiples, preterm (born before 37 weeks) delivery, and having a hospitalized baby are all risk factors of postpartum depression. I was routinely asked by my doctors and my children's pediatrician how I was coping. It took a knowledgable friend, Bonnie, who knew the signs and symptoms to get me to seek the help that I needed.
I have learned postpartum depression is different for each person. According
to postpartumdepression.org “postpartum depression (PPD) is a serious mood disorder that affects women after childbirth. Postpartum depression creates feelings of sadness, anxiety, depression and exhaustion that can greatly inhibit their ability to care for their newborn child.” I made a phone call to my OB and made an appointment. The doctor prescribed medication for me to try for a few months. I was nervous that I was going to be even more sleepy or numb, but the medication just helped prevent some tears and enabled happy moments. Other moms may need help from supportive family members to assist with taking over child care responsibilities, additional services such as talk therapy are helpful too.
If you think you may be suffering from postpartum depression, take the first step by taking this quiz. https://www.postpartumdepression.org/resources/quiz/
Other resources can be found at: www.postpartum.net www.1800ppdmoms.org
PPD is a serious condition although many women have recovered from it to thrive with their newborns. You can find recovery by acknowledging that your feelings are valid and seek support to help you win at twinning.